It’s now been two weeks since I’ve last written. Again.
First I was laying low for advent and just trying to experience it and not rush or force anything. Then we went to Michigan, and now we’ve been back for two weeks in the regular hum-drum of it all, except that it seems nothing about it is regular. I go to work each day waiting to be handed my pink slip, knowing that it can’t go on this way for much longer, yet it does. I’m not really angry anymore. I’m not too stressed, either. (I’m giving a lot of that credit to the fact that I’ve given up about 80% of my caffeine habit. It’s crazy how helpful that’s been.) I’m just sortof stuck in this holding pattern and the one thing that I have been investing time (actual and of the daydreaming variety) into is making our home a great place for us to be and a place that works well for us. On a strict budget, at that.
Last weekend, I did a lot of sewing. I’ve done little since then, but what I did got me excited and gave me the confidence & boost to help me know I’m headed in a good direction. I’ve done a lot of cooking- trying to master that one, as much as I really don’t enjoy it, it’s something that will never not need to be done, and in reality, will need to be done even more once I get laid off and my budget gets smaller. Practice, practice. I successfully made two big pots of soup yesterday, so our freezer is getting happier and that is definitely satisfying to me. I’m hoping that will also give me a bit more time in the evenings this week to be creative despite the habit of putting my pjs on assoonasIwalkinthedoor and sit on the sofa. It’s a hard habit to break, I tell ya.
I do have a few concrete things happening this year, and so I have those to look forward to, and in the meantime, as I emailed a friend this morning, I’m going to be thinking up ways to be creative right where I’m at. (That will likely be the most challenging thing to accomplish, if I’m being truthful)
I do hope your January is off to a sweet start. Ours has been very, very cold for us New Mexicans and it’s just the way I like it. Well, mostly. I could do without needing to start my car so much earlier than I need to leave in the mornings. Not too big of a hassle, though.