Wednesday, September 26, 2012

Beginning of the End

Over two months ago, I shared here that I was notified that my company is being bought by another, a company out east that plans to absorb us. It's been a strange season- at work and at home. In general, I guess. It was not long after Gabe started the nursing program and we were a one income family- my income. So, yeah. It shook me a little, but once the newness wore off, I was ok. Not long after the announcement, Gabe & I made the decision to move again, even though we really thought we'd be here for more than one lease term. We decided to move in with his grandma so we'd have less of a financial burden to worry about if I was to be laid off before he graduates, and honestly, knowing that we don't have to worry about rent right now is probably why I've not had major anxiety attacks in the last few months. I've felt mostly at peace, but I would be lying if I said I've not a care in the world. 
Without going too far into it, I found out today that the company buying mine is not planning to keep my department around past February at the very latest, likely not past January. I know I will fare fine. I know that between my severance, our smaller  monthly overhead, and creativity, we will be fine. But I have many co-workers that are in much different situations as I am and it hurts my heart. I know it's just business, but honestly, business can suck it. These are people, we all are, and it's like we weren't even given a chance to show that our operations are pretty awesome. 
We were told to dress up this week as some of the honchos from new company would be in town, meeting with us & observing us, but we learned today that they weren't giving us a chance- they met with us strictly to make us aware of the timeline of things. 
I know that I've said many times that I can't wait to be a stay at home wife, and it is still true, but when you're on move number 6 in 6 years while you've worked for the same company for 5 years, you realize that maybe it's more than just a job- it's a constant & part of my life. This is the first job I've had that I've not one time searched for something better, I know I've had it good and I'm so thankful for that. I do look forward to a new season, but this isn't exactly the way we thought it'd begin.
You might've noticed I've been awfully quiet around here lately. It's true. Yes, I've been busy trying to pack & get our affairs in order, but there have just been so many things on my heart that I knew if I tried to get just one off my chest, I'd spiral down and down, never knowing when or how to quit. So, with that, I guess I've done it- got one off my chest. I hope to be here more, write through more, be able to lay down more and walk away a wee bit lighter each time. Thank you for being here & showing me that we're all here, not alone, but small parts of something grand.


3 comments:

  1. Yes, sometimes business sucks. So sorry for your coworkers who will be deeply impacted. And for you too even if your situation is better than some. It still takes faith and change can be stressful.
    On a side note I put your pillow in my recent post about my fall decor. I need to do a post on just the pillow but was wondering about your etsy shop. Will you reopen it at some point?

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  2. Mandie, that stinks! I know things will work out and be fine, but I also know the process of change isn't always easy. I will be praying for you and hope things smooth out quickly and with ease.

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  3. Saying a prayer for you friend! I know so well what it's like to be in a tough season (we've been there for a couple of years now!), but God provides every time and I've never been hungry!

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