Wednesday, July 11, 2012

Shifts and Changes

I've been a different, perhaps new version of myself these last few weeks, a version of me that has felt many emotions. I've alluded on facebook and twitter to the fact that last month, one month after Gabe quit his full-time job in order to attend school full-time, the company I work for announced that it expects to be purchased by another company this fall, and that I will most likely be laid off. Like I said, I've been feeling a lot of things- everything from frustration of the unknown to excitement of upcoming changes to peace to spacing out... ;) Just kidding. 
The thing is that I like plans. I'm sure most of you do, too. But, I'm discovering, maybe plans are nothing more than a coping mechanism in themselves. I was emailing a friend & coworker yesterday about All of The Changes that might be happening and eventually I came to the conclusion that for me, all a plan is is something to rely on and put my trust in, which honestly is sortof dumb. I should be trusting in God to sort these things out & to provide for us- He's much more capable than I am. I'm not suggesting that we shouldn't take responsibility for ourselves, but that maybe we (I) should act more and plan less. Live more in the moment and think (worry) less. 
We're taking precautions for what may be, which means we're moving, again. Yes, that means we'll be moving into our sixth home in just over 6 years, but I think this is one of those things I need to be learning too: To be content wherever I am, even if it's in new walls each year. I think this move will be really good, though, and I'll explain more later, I'm sure. For now, just know this- we are good and content and we have each other and that's really just what we need.


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9 comments:

  1. Wow...even though you have many changes going on, I love hearing how you are trusting God through it all. Love and miss you!

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  2. love you. press on, sister. i'm here with ya! :)
    isaiah 64:4
    xo

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  3. Oh friend, what a lot to handle. I really love that you are taking this time to lean on the Lord though...a lesson I need to learn and practice more often :) You're amazing and I will be praying for more peace and easy transition

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  4. I needed to hear this! I'm a planner too and kind of a perfectionist and if I don't think things will end up just so I won't even try. I'm starting to just let go and do things anyway. Life can't be perfect. Thanks for sharing!

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  5. That is a lot to handle girl, I feel for you. Its hard to trust in God sometimes. The scriptures say to "throw our burdens" on him, but I have a hard time not taking them back. Wishing you peace and happiness on your continued journey. <3

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  6. I'm so proud of you and Gabe.......I KNOW things are going to be fine! God's in control. Love you both, G

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  7. Thank you all! It's nice to have this 'out there' now. :)

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  8. Yes I love plans too. I have lots of lists, lots of plans, but it's so important to be able to put the list down and live in the moment once in a while. My daughter and I love our days of spontineity.

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  9. Very timely...this goes right along with the discussion we were having in Sunday School this morning. I think it helps to keep in mind that everything we "have" is God's...He has a much bigger picture in mind. Someday you'll have an opportunity to reflect on this time in your life, and you'll be able to take away important lessons from it. Praying for you!

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