Monday, March 19, 2012

Just Writing and Knitting

So, there are plenty of photos to share of our vacation last week- mostly of Evelyn, but today I'm just writing some thoughts that have been floating around between my heart & mind.








I have now attempted to start knitting the same cowl four times, all since two Saturdays ago when we were driving to Missouri. I got the furthest along in it on our way home, in the dark even, but when I was about 2/3 of the way finished, I realized there were a few holes in it & wanted to fix them as I'm considering actually selling it at one of the local shops I'm consigning at.


While Gabe was at Starbucks, studying, I brought my yarn & decided to just take out the messy rows. But once I un-knitted them, I realized that I didn't quite know how to just put the rows back on my needles, or even where to start, so I took the entire thing apart & was left with a mess of tangled yarn.


I am in a similar position to my tangled, messy yarn with All The Things. I closed my shop to dedicate more time to housewife-ing (of the afterhours variety, of course- still working my nine-ish to fiver). Cooking, organinzing, lose weight-ing to be able to have a baby-ing, and I feel like I've tried all the ways & still need to start over. Just not sure how far to undo the things I've learned and done.


I know it's just life, not only me. It's just sometimes hard to see that everyone else has tangles and holes, too. Sometimes, as humans, we're a little too good at hiding those things from others. Maybe if they showed sometimes we could help patch each other up in a new way that wouldn't require a complete un-knitting of All the Things.

12 comments:

  1. sometimes (especially on the interwebs), it's so easy to share just the good things. maybe it's because we don't want the "bad" things to linger around for forever? or maybe we feel embarrassed/ashamed/too scared to share some of the real-life things that are going on... i know i'm guilty of putting on a brave face and letting my own head deal with the bad. mandie, i'd like to pray for you if that's ok? to pray for your "holes" to be filled and that any "gaps" you might be having trouble with are working themselves out... best wishes...

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  2. Love you friend. I can relate. Hoping you find some peace with all your tangles.

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  3. i undo a lot- both in knitting and life. you of all people know my screwups. but i just keep trying :)
    love you

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  4. Life is messy and tangled, and hard to knit back together, sometimes. Much luck to you in that journey!

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  5. Life is full of holes and imperfections. When I try to make them perfect in my own image, or the image I think someone else expects, I get frustrated and confused. Hope you find some peace in the process. Nice to meet you through Just Write.

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  6. well. i love this. and i am a hot mess of tangled holey-ness. (not to be confused with holiness)

    thanks for sharing, sweet sister. so encouraged by you, glad you had a fun trip, too:)

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  7. oh honey...we all have tangles and holes. just keep working at your goals and keep your always-sunny-attitude!

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  8. Yes! I love this metaphor! It's so hard to see the tangles other people are busily unknitting, and it can be such an isolating feeling, but I really think we're all in it together. (At least, I know I'm there.)

    Thinking of you --

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  9. Oh, the holes. My life is full of them. And just when I think I've knitted it right another one appears somewhere. I tell myself that's what makes life, well, life. Good luck with your holes.

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  10. Love all the above comments.........and I ditto them! Try to repair holes as they appear, before they ruin the whole fabric......of life! It's a continuous event going on........not just repair and then perfection.....ongoing challenge! Loved spending a little special time with you last week........wasn't it fun? Love you lots, Gram

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  11. Wow - a lovely post! Especially as a knitter to take that visual and use it as imagery. Sometimes the holes are intended to make a prettier cowl, don't you think? But I know the holes you mean, the ones that are not so pretty that need repair. Surrender them to the One who sees the pattern of your life, and He will set them straight and repair them, only probably not in the way you think He will or ought. Praying for Him to work through your holes. Nice to meet you today through Just Write.

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  12. I don't knit (though I have been known to crochet) and I know the feeling, both with yarn and in life. Its funny how we all experience those tough moments and we all wish we could share them with others but when we are in the middle of it, it just seems easier to keep it close, maybe out of fear or shame. But when we do finally talk about it, we find we were never really alone to begin with.

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