So, there are plenty of photos to share of our vacation last week- mostly of Evelyn, but today I'm just writing some thoughts that have been floating around between my heart & mind.
I have now attempted to start knitting the same cowl four times, all since two Saturdays ago when we were driving to Missouri. I got the furthest along in it on our way home, in the dark even, but when I was about 2/3 of the way finished, I realized there were a few holes in it & wanted to fix them as I'm considering actually selling it at one of the local shops I'm consigning at.
While Gabe was at Starbucks, studying, I brought my yarn & decided to just take out the messy rows. But once I un-knitted them, I realized that I didn't quite know how to just put the rows back on my needles, or even where to start, so I took the entire thing apart & was left with a mess of tangled yarn.
I am in a similar position to my tangled, messy yarn with All The Things. I closed my shop to dedicate more time to housewife-ing (of the afterhours variety, of course- still working my nine-ish to fiver). Cooking, organinzing, lose weight-ing to be able to have a baby-ing, and I feel like I've tried all the ways & still need to start over. Just not sure how far to undo the things I've learned and done.
I know it's just life, not only me. It's just sometimes hard to see that everyone else has tangles and holes, too. Sometimes, as humans, we're a little too good at hiding those things from others. Maybe if they showed sometimes we could help patch each other up in a new way that wouldn't require a complete un-knitting of All the Things.